I was 12 years old, and on camp with the scouts. Camps were mixed, boys and girls went together, but we slept in separate tents, and most of the activities were also separate. One day I got sick, the very day my group left on a 2-day trip. One of the leaders studied medicine and … Continue reading One fine day with the girl scouts

I had a happy childhood. Really, I did. There were some difficult moments, but the kind everyone has to deal with at some point. Still, I'm experiencing some kind of loss these days. I've only recently accepted being a transgender person. For years I did a lot of things secretly, and I was ashamed for … Continue reading Reconstructing my youth

And there I was, all dressed up. I was wearing a pretty dress, pantyhose, elegant shoes with heels, and make-up applied by a professional. I was on cloud nine, but it also felt a bit awkward in the beginning. How was I supposed to stand? What to do with my arms and legs? What should … Continue reading Dance Class

Why do I have this thing for women's clothes? Why do I like to wear a skirt? Do I want to be a woman, and what does that mean, "being a woman"? Why am I so much attracted to feminine elegance, grace, friendliness… that I want to radiate it myself? The honest answer to these … Continue reading Why?